It was over one month since i updated my blog.
So, please bear with me for awhile while I'm trying to unload my packed thoughts (or stories?).. hehe :P
First thing that I wanted to say...
This sem is really HECTIC. =.='''
The tests n quizes never ends,
assignments are always there,
and i still need to complete my FYP proposal in two weeks time!
(yeah, rite now i shud turn to my FYP, but I'm trying to release some tension here)
But one thing that I realised I have improved on is I'm more hardworking in my study than last sem... For people that doesnt know me well, in the inside I'm quite stubborn, and it took me 3 years to understand that only faith n intelligence is not enough... I need to give efforts too...
Faith without action is dead indeed.
Recently I'm learning to control my tongue....
whether in the real life or in FB (in this case it will be "fingers", since I'm typing) ...
trying hard not to badmouthing people...
that's one bad habit i had and it cost me my friend's trust..
It's true that we should always be ourselves, but being ourselves doesnt mean we have to be meanie n talk bad about someone else, eventhough they started it first.
who am I to judge others?
We should be careful bout the way we talks, because from the same mouth we can bring blessing to others, but its also from the same mouth we can bring curse to others...
Good trees will produce good fruits, bad trees produce the bad fruits, so when we (especially those who claimed themselves as children of God) are more comfortable to say negative things rather than to bless others, we should examine ourselves...
Does the spirit of God lives in us, or some other spirits, such as the spirit of hatred, bitterness...
If u found out u had such diseases, don't wait any longer!
the longer u wait, the disease will become more worse.
Believe me.
I've been there.
It hurts a lot when I'm taking out that "tumor" in my life.
It nearly cost my "spiritual" life.
Thank God because without Him, i would never healed from my wound.
Even though rite now I haven't healed completely, but at least rite now I know I'm in the healing process.
But in order for the healing process to happen, I had to come to Him first.
I was being honest with everything I've done, and what I felt.
I'm ashamed, I'm disappointed, I cried, I yelled.
yet the moment I was being truthful to Him, I felt His hands around me.
Slowly, the warm feeling that i haven't felt for a long time slowly come back to me.
I felt His love again.
That moment I know I was alive again.
It was His love that made me feel complete inside.
Only when I live in His love I experience the true meaning of "alive".
"But if we confess our sins to him, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all wickedness.- 1 John 1.9"
"Yes, I am the vine; you are the branches. Those who remain in me, and I in them, will produce much fruit. For apart from me you can do nothing.- John 15.5"
A friend of mine send a message to me that " there is no gain without pain"...
this message of hers really struck me, because lately i was dealing with my inner demon, where i really wanted to live according to God's will, but my flesh keep on interfering...
But God remind me, its not easy to live for Him.
There was a time when i posted something in my FB:
"Our worth is not determined by the world. not by our work.
The real worth is determined by God Himself. sometimes what is valuable to humans, is despicable in front of God."
The real worth is determined by God Himself. sometimes what is valuable to humans, is despicable in front of God."
It's not wrong to work hard to get something.
God does appreciate people who work hard in their life.
But don't let these ambitions become the priority in our life.
Put Jesus as the top concern in our life. =)
Well, that's all i have to say for now.
Until we meet again!
God bless u . ^_^
